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Loving You Is Too difficult – Ch 3.2

Had she sneaked out to party? He hoped so. No, he immediately changed his mind. He hoped she was in the bathroom. But the bathroom was dark and the door was open

Was she in the study? But when he passed by , the study was dark and empty…

“Hello, hello.” Suddenly a soft and familiar voice spoke out in astonishment. “ Why didn’t I hear you? When did you come in?”

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NCND – Ch 52.3

This was revenge!

His hand slowly went down, igniting every nerve end of my body. My skin was heating up and felt extraordinarily sensitive. I dared not touch his wounds so I could not even fight back. I just tried to squeeze into the corner but there was no respite from his touch

His palms moved up and cupped my face. Through the mist of water, I could see his eyes shining, hotter than the boiling water

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NCND – Chapter 42.2

Thank you for the comments. Most of you felt no sympathy for Yu Yin and I agree in that she used the most devious methods to get a man who did not love her. We are all responsible for our feelings and forcing someone to return those feelings, even hurting others in the process , well, that certainly does not get any sympathy. But nevertheless, I cant help feeling a teeny weeny bit sad for the woman who patiently waited for YZ to return her feelings, took on something she thought was a golden opportunity to get close to him, only to find that luck had already cast the dice against her. Yes , she should have walked off when she realised what was happening, but perhaps she had invested too much and too long in this to be able to walk away.

 

While she was ruminating, they had arrived at their destination. Ye Zhengchen parked his car in the garage of a small building.

He took her through the lawn, entered a house and turned on the lights.

The light reflected from the light green curtains on the windows, giving the room a nice refreshing look.

Yu Yin looked around. The room was furnished very simply and had a masculine air.

 

“Is this your house?” she asked.

“ Yes. I was staying here when I first came to Japan”, he said, “ a year ago, I moved to an international hostel. I come here only occasionally now.”

 

Ye Zhengchen showed her the layout of the rooms. “ The first floor has the living room and the kitchen. The bathrooms are on the second floor. There are two bedrooms on that floor as well. One is a western style bedroom while the other one is furnished in a Japanese manner. There is a folder inside the drawer here. It has instructions on how to use all the household appliances. If you don’t understand anything, just call me. The phone is in the living room. Every Saturday afternoon, a Chinese help comes to clean. Just don’t let her in the study.”

“I know”

 

Finally Ye Zhengchen took her to the study and gave her the keys “ These are the keys. Keep it since you will stay here.”

“ Which room should I stay in?”

“Wherever you want”, he casually added, “ I live in the hostel.”

Ye Zhengchen took out a pathology book from the shelf.

“ Have a look at the book. When I hand over the data, you should be familiar with the subject matter.”

After this, he looked at his watch. She was surprised to notice it wasn’t a Rolex or Jaegar, but a brand she didn’t recognise with a seagull as the logo.

“ I need to go now.”

Seeing him in a hurry, Yu Yin just nodded, even though she was hungry.

“Sure. I can see you’re busy.”

After Ye Zhengchen left, a strange emptiness seemed to surround her.

She unpacked the luggage and was wondering if she should go out and eat something.

Just then there was a ringing sound.. She opened the curtains to see Ye Zhengchen entering the lawn while carrying a bunch of stuff in plastic bags. The security system was set up in a manner that a bell would ring anytime someone entered the door.

 

She went to the door but Ye Zhengchen had already entered using his own key.

“ I bought some food for you”. He stood at the door and handed over the bags. He pulled a stack of yens from his pocket and handed her those as well.

“ Keep this. There is a twenty four hour convenience store about five hundred metres from here. Whatever you need you can buy there. Keep an eye out for the traffic lights..”

 

Although these were just simple words, she could feel her heart beat faster as she could discern the care and concern he felt for her underlying these words.

“ Thank you !”

“ Don’t worry. Japan is very safe”

“ That’s great.”

Yu Yin knew that his indifference and alienation was not derived from any hatred. He just didn’t like anyone, especially his father, dictating the terms of his marriage.

So she had come here, determined to give him a chance to really know and understand her.

 

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The next day, Ye Zhengchen turned up in the evening to give her some data. Yu Yin had deliberately cooked an elaborate dinner. He looked at the table with an expressionless face, silently rejecting the invitation.

“ I need to do some research at the institute today.”

“ You need to go back to the institute so late at night?”

“ I need to work on something”, he hastily put on his coat.

“ I’ll wait for you then.”

“ I’m going to be really late.”

Shortly after he left, Yu Yin packed the food and drove herself to the research building in the Osaka Medical school

The professors usually worked till eight ‘o clock, and the students left by nine

After nine o clock, only the students who were working in the lab were present in the building

She found Ye Zhengchen’s lab but he was not there. One of the students asked her to go to the laboratory for viral culture.

As she walked up the stairs, she could see Ye Zhengchen standing in the corridor, quietly watching something through the glass doors.

She didnt know what was inside, but the look in his eyes seemed to suggest a rare and profound emotion.

After gazing like this for a while, he turned and looked out of the window, seemingly immersed in the scenery outside.

Dim light shrouded his back. He looked a bit lonely.

But he wasn’t really looking at the scenery. He seemed to be waiting for something or somebody.

After some time, he looked at his watch and gently stroked the wrist band with one finger.

Once again, he went to the door and looked in, a naughty smile hanging on his face.

Yu Yin’s fingers tightened on the handrail.

A woman’s intuition told her there was a woman behind the door.

Seeing Ye Zhengchen open the door, Yu Yin quietly walked towards the lab.

There really was a girl inside. She was sitting in front of the microscope. Her long hair was rolled up in a bun, revealing a cute face. Her loose lab coat was unable to hide the delicate curves of her body. Ye Zhengchen hugged her from behind, his hands unashamedly moving towards the girl’s chest.

She was shocked and turned to see him. She blushed when she saw who it was.

Shamelessly, his fingers delved into the opening of the coat.

Yu Yin turned and leaned against the wall, inhaling deeply.

She would not believe this. Even if she saw it with her own eyes, she would not believe this. Ye Zhengchen was not such a person.

In the quiet corridor, she could hear them speaking inside the room.

“ Dr Ye, this is a place where we are dedicated to save lives. What are you doing?”

“ No one saw us.”

“ What if someone did?”

“ We’re just giving them some ideas ..I don’t mind.”

“ I will report you.. I..”, the girl’s voice weakened and Yu Yin could no longer hear her.

The corridor was filled with the smell of disinfectants. She felt like it smelled of death.

Yu Yin held the bad with one hand, while the other hand fisted, driving her nails into the soft flesh of her palm.

“ Please, let me go..” , the girls voice was soft and pleading.

“ Girl..”, Ye Zhengchen’s voice sounded sensuous and deeply emotional.

“ Tonight, when you come home, you wear the white lab coat..”

Yu Yin could no longer bear the hear the rest of the conversation. She felt like throwing a bucket of cold water on the two people inside.

She took out her phone and dialled Ye Zhengchen’s number.

She could hear the sound of the phone ringing in the lab.

“ Let me take this call”, he said, “ wait for me.”

Ye Zhengchen walked out of the room with his phone in his hand, “ Hello”

Yu Yin did not speak till he saw her.

For a second, he was shocked. Then he pulled her into the dark staircase as fast as he could.

“ Why are you here?” he asked her.

She smiled coldly.” Why? DId i disturb your flirting?”

He hesitated. There was a clear sign of guilt on his face but he did not apologise to her.

Clearly he refused to admit that he was wrong. Even knowing that he had hurt her deeply, he was unwilling to give her an explanation, or even admit to his guilt.

Yu Yin understood. Her face twisted and tears fell in the dark.

“ Do you like her?”

“ Can’t you figure that out ?”

She shook her head and no one spoke for sometime.

There was a sound of a chair scraping the floor from inside the lab. Hurriedly, Ye Zhengchen said, “ You go back now. Tomorrow, I’ll come by to tell you everything.”

 

The next day. Ye Zhengchen told her the entire story. This girl was called Bo Bing and he had fallen in love with her. But the organisation asked him to break up with her. The reason was very simple. He had been sent to investigate on the bacteria reseracch being carried out here, not to fall in love with a girl.

He came back and duly broke up with her, but he could not control his own emotions and made a big mistake..

As for what that mistake was, Yu Yin did not need to ask.

“ Why didn’t you tell me all this earlier?”, she asked.

“ Dad said that if I told this to anybody, he would make sure that she would be sent to a place so far away that I would never be able to find her.”

“ If you like her so much, why did you not think of what would happen if you fell in love with her ?”

“ I count not control my emotions!”

She did not understand. How could he not control his emotions when it came to falling in love with a person who was forbidden to him? Yet, he had been in full control of his emotions for ten years, twenty years.. And at the last minute he had given in to his impulse!

She shrank back in the sofa.

“ What are you going to do?”

“ I don’t want to hurt her”, he lifted his head to look at her. There was a tenderness in his eyes, the likes of which she had never seen. “ No matter what happens in the future, I only hope that the damage to her is limited to the minimum…”

“ And what about me?” Did he even think that she too was hurt in this as well ?

“ You do what you need to do, don’t worry about anything else. When the time is right, I will apply to the seniors and have you sent back.”

“…”

This was what Ye Zhengchen thought of her.

After so many years of patiently waiting for him, she had finally got an opportunity to get close to him. She was not willing to give up, she was not willing to be kicked out by Ye Zhengchen. Under no circumstance could she tolerate losing him to another woman.

Sometimes you needed to fight for your love.

Jealousy often blinded intellect.

Someone as intelligent as Yu Yin actually forgot that Ye Zhengchen had done niothing to hurt her. On the contrary, he was trying to minimise the damage to her as well.

He wanted her to leave just to ensure that she didnt waste any more of her time on a man who did not love her.

 

NCND-41.3

It was silent all around, except for the rustling of leaves as the cool breeze blew gently.

Hie breath was scorching on my face and his stare grew more and more intense.

He leaned closer. Instinctively, I retreated back, one step at a time till my back hit the trunk of a tree.

My chapped bark caught at my clothes

He placed his palms on the trunk on both sides of my head, effectively imprisoning me within the circle of his arms

“ You…”

He moved closer, and with his lips near my ear , he whispered, “ I remember, you said, your fantasy was to have me wear a uniform one day… you would slowly unbutton the uniform, one button at a time…then take off the uniform… the aura of a solemn and serious  man gradually being shed.”

My breath hitched and my chest moved violently up and down as I tried to get some oxygen into my brain.

The lines of his rigid uniform outlined a heroic and solemn figure. Just like he had described, the beautiful uniform seemed to have imprisoned him, creating a sense of an unattainable and unreachable person..

“Now I give you a chance..”, the smile in his voice was very evident.

“ Here?”

I knew I had to repay him for his favour, but this was neither the time nor the place.

He laughed silently. His answer was self evident

I had no retreat. Shamelessly, my hand moved forward. As soon as my fingertips touched his clothes, an electric current coursed through my body.

My hand shook and I gulped air, trying to get some oxygen circulating in my brain.

He was happy seeing me tortured like this.

As I looked at the blue sky and the lush trees, then the ground carpeted by yellow leaves, it suddenly struck me that there was no way he was going to do something here, He cound not afford to dirty his uniform.

At best, he was just teasing me to see how embarrassed I would be.

 

I relaxed. Once again, I reached out and my fingers reached the button on his collar. My palms were slightly sweaty and my nails lightly scraped the skin at his neck. The smile on his face faded

I unbuttoned the button on his collar. The half open collar made him look sexy and I could not help but look up to his eyes

His eyes were no longer calm. The hidden fires clearly hinted at his emotions.

As I unbuttoned the second button, my heart started beating faster and faster and my breathing became more and more erratic

By the time the third button was open, the sound of our breathing seemed to have overcome the sounds of the distant rustling of the leaves. Just when I reached the fourth button, Ye Zhengchen caught my wrist and pushed it against the trunk. My breath hitched again as I felt the familiar pressure of his body over  mine

I could see the naked desire in his eyes. I was too scared to move.

In this broad daylight, where we were easily visible, did he really intend to ..?

 

He deeply inhaled, then exhaled, his eyes staring at the distant scenery of the faint outline of trees in the mist.

I breathed a sigh of relief and relaxed my body, I had escaped this ordeal. As I relaxed, his body sagged and his hot lips touched my neck.

As his tongue gently licked the skin at my neck, I struggled and my nails dug into the bark of the tree.

He moved my hair and gently kissed the outline of my ears.

Maybe because I was always accustomed to him acting in a crazed and wild manner, this rare display of gentleness made my whole body feel uncomfortable. I twisted to escape his touch, not knowing if I wanted to push him away or get closer to him.

He kissed me lightly, then let go of my wrist. With the back of his hand, he traced my forehead, then slowly moved down to my cheek and further down. I could no longer feign indifference. I closed my eyes and clearly felt every sensation and his soft touch travelled everywhere in my body.

I didnt shout out ‘No!” or “ Dont!”. I did not struggle, did not resist. My previous experience had long since proved that he would always get what he wanted. I did not want to pretend anymore.

Let him do what he wanted, till he decided that he had had enough

I thought that my submissiveness may make him lose interest. But instead, it only invigorated him and his brisk fingers started playing with my breasts, making me more and more addicted to his touch.

 

His breath in my ears was like a spreading fire melting my bones.

 

NCND – Chapter 40.1

“ How is Yu Yin?”

Maybe the question was too unexpected. Ye Zhengchen was silent for some time, then looked closely at me.

I jumped in again, “ I heard you guys got married. Congratulations!”

Ye Zhengchen froze for a moment, then spoke clearly, “I did not marry her. At that time, the situation was such that I had no choice..”

‘I did not marry her’, these words echoed in my head over and over again.

If only I had heard this sentence three years ago, things may have been different…

Unfortunately, at that time , there was nothing he could tell me. He could only watch as my heart broke when one lie after another was exposed.

Now he was telling me the truth, but how could I answer ?

We had gone so much ahead now. How could we go back to the past now?

We could only blame our own fates that we had met the wrong people at the wrong time.

I had no regrets anymore. It was all in the past. All I wanted now was that Zhong Tim would not suffer in the interrogation room.

As for anything else, I dared not think about it.

The pretty waitress knocked at the door and came in with a spicy chicken dish and two bowls. She placed them on the table.

We kept looking silently at her

She glanced at us and then went out.

“ Girl, I missed you terribly in the last three years!”

In one sentence, he had brought back the feeling of intense longing I used to feel for him.

I smiled, but it felt fake.

“ What is it that you want to ask me?”

I breathed in deeply and said, “ Even if your marriage with Yu Yin is fake, isn’t it true that you shared the same bed with her for the last three years?”

Before I had finished my sentence, Ye Zhengchen slammed his cup down on the table, causing the hot tea to spill on his hand

“ Who told you this ? Yu Yin?” He clenched his hand in a fist and barked out angrily, “ You even believed such absurd stuff?”

I looked at my cup, the tea in it was trembling

“Why would you prefer to believe whatever she says, but decide not to trust me?”

He sounded gloomy and upset now.

“ It’s not that I believe her and not you”, I sighed “ In this world, I don’t believe anyone…”

This was the lesson he had taught me, one that I was never going to forget.

He looked out of the window, taking a moment to calm down.

“ I was only working with her. There was nothing else between us but work.”

I didn’t say anything. Instead, I stared at the diamond ring on my finger.

He looked down and followed my gaze to look at the ring as well

The ice blue light refracted from the diamond. I did not understand how a piece of coal could turn to something so beautiful.

Right! This was because it had gone through millions of cuts and millions of polishing.

Now it represented eternal commitment.

He took the watch from the table and put it in his pocket.

After eating a tasteless lunch, Ye Zhengchen dropped me back to my residence. He didn’t speak at all on the way. When I got off the car, I told him, “ I will go back to the Nanjing. Let me know if there is any news about Zhong Tim.”

Suddenly, he grabbed my hand. His grip was so strong that the ring cut into my finger causing me pain. I clenched my mouth

I didn’t pull out my hand but he released me. “ Don’t worry. I will find a way to get your fiancé off.”

“Thank you !”

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Back in the hotel room, I lay down on the bed and gazed at the ceiling

Was it true that the relationship between Yu Yin and him was only work-related?

I remember, when I had just come back from Japan, I saw some photos of Qin Xue on a social media website. All my friends from the apartment were in those photos, playing and frolicking about. I became quite emotional while seeing this

Brother Feng and Mrs Feng looked so loving, the two looked quite blissful.

Ling Ling also had a man with her. She was laughing, her cheeks blushing, while the man bowed down to remove leaves from her hair..

Qin Xue also had a boyfriend. He was very handsome and looked a bit like Ye Zhengchen from some angles.

When I moved to the next photo, I saw Ye Zhengchen… A wave of distress rose in my heart but in the very next moment, I saw Yu Yin and all my feelings disappeared.

I numbly pressed the button to see the next picture and the next one..

My hands froze

On the screen, there was a beautiful photo of Yu Yin’s residence. It was a warmly decorated home with flowers everywhere.

Colorful candles were lit and placed on a strawberry cake. Everyone was gathered round the table , probably to sing ‘Happy Birthday’. Ye Zhengchen was slightly bent, whispering something to Yu Yin.

Yu Yin was holding a large bouquet of roses.

There was a slight trace of an evil smile on Ye Zhengchen’s face.

I forgot how long I kept staring at the photo. I even forgot to blink, causing my eyes to water.

Qin Xue was online. I messaged her : How are you ?

Qin Xue:  Haven’t seen you for a long time

Me : Just saw the photo of your boyfriend. He is really handsome!

Qin Xue : Fortunately, he is also studying medicine

My hand was on the keyboard. My brain was completely blank. I realised I had already typed the follwong line : How is Ye Zhengchen?

I wanted to recall it, but it was already too late.

She told me that not long after I left, Ye Zengchen had moved in with another woma called Yu Yin. She was the woman in the photo. She was beautiful and had a noble temperament. This time, Ye Zhengchen seemed to have really fallen in love with her.

She also told me that they were often seen together in the campus, in the supermarket and in the library. She had also heard that they had married.

Looking at the computer screen, my whole body felt drained of any energy. I wanted to cry but there were no tears…

That night, I had a terrible dream. I dreamt that I had returned to my apartment in Osaka. I leaned against the wall separating my apartment from ye Zhengchen’s. From the other side of the wall, I could hear Yu Yin moaning and screaming.

Every time she called his name, “ Chen..”, I would use my nails to draw a tally mark on the wall. Over and over, I would do this till my hands were bloody and my nails were ripped…

When I woke up the next day, I immediately dialled Ling ling.

After my repeated questioning, Ling Ling told me , “ What Qin Xue said was true. He has a girlfriend.. the two of them have been living together for a long time.”

“ Oh”. I didnt know what to say.

Ling Ling went on to give me a lot of advice, but I didn’t hear a word.

I hung up the phone and walked out of the door.

In the deep winter, I sat under the old elm tree in the garden outside. I was only wearing a thin sweater, but I didnt feel the cold

People kept looking at me, probably thinking I was crazy.

Even I felt that I had gone mad. Why else would I still continue to harbour illusions about Ye Zhengchen?

I had been fooled so many times , but I still thought that his feelings for me were true. I still believed that after three years, his commitment to me would become real.

…… …

My heart was completely frozen when a warm coat was placed on me. Someone came and sat next to me

“ Uncle told me you had gone to work early this morning but the people at the hospital told me that they hadn’t seen you all day…. I guessed you were here.”

I wanted to speak but my lips were numb

“ You still come here when you are in a bad mood?”

His large palm held my hands and rubbed them gently.

“ It’s for that man, right?”

I shook my head

“ He isn’t worth it.”

He continued to rub my hand. “ It’s still not too late now.”

“ Love is an illusion. Unforgettable love is a lie.”

“Infatuation, passion burning like a hot fire, all of this is fleeting.”

I was amazed.

“ There is only one thing that is true and lasting…affection.”

I nodded. The respect and affection between my parents was true and everlasting.

“ Love is not maintained by romance and passion..”Zhong Tim patted my shoulders, “ our parents genuinely care for each other. This is what will last.”

His arms made me feel comfortable, not like someone else’s arms which made me feel so much volatile emotion.

 

…… …

 

In time, I had seen many couples face life and death, or genuine grief of having lost a loved one and frankly, I agreed with what Zhong Tim said.

The real family was one that depended on each other.

Passionate love could only be maintained in the human body for one year. After a year, the passion was no longer hot. But the love within a family would only become stronger.

I thought this was why Yu Yin was willing to indulge ye Zhengchen. There was no passion between them, but they had love and respect for each other.

Two years later, one morning, with not a hint of romance, Zhong Tim suddenly took my hand and simply said, “ Let’s get married.”

I smiled at the man in front of me.

When he held my hand, my heart did not beat rapidly. But I knew of his dedication and loyalty and I could not bear to refuse him.

I asked him, “ Don’t you need a ring before you propose to me?”

He immediately took out a ring from his pocket and put it on my finger.

“ I have been prepared for a long time…”

I knew that my heart was dead; that I would never be tempted by another man. But that was first love! My feelings for Zhong Tim were pure and uncomplicated.

I thought that these feelings would gradually trickle down and heal my heart.

I never thought that Ye Zhengchen would come back, and that when he held my hand, the old wounds would come to the surface again…

 

NCND – Chapter 39

Dont forget to catch up on Chapter 38 in the earlier post and leave me your comments 🙂 Happy Friday !

Chapter 39

“ How is Yu Yin?”

Maybe the question was too unexpected. Ye Zhengchen was silent for some time, then looked closely at me.

I jumped in again, “ I heard you guys got married. Congratulations!”

Ye Zhengchen froze for a moment, then spoke clearly, “I did not marry her. At that time, the situation was such that I had no choice..”

‘I did not marry her’, these words echoed in my head over and over again.

If only I had heard this sentence three years ago, things may have been different…

Unfortunately, at that time , there was nothing he could tell me. He could only watch as my heart broke when one lie after another was exposed.

Now he was telling me the truth, but how could I answer ?

We had gone so much ahead now. How could we go back to the past now?

We could only blame our own fates that we had met the wrong people at the wrong time.

I had no regrets anymore. It was all in the past. All I wanted now was that Zhong Tim would not suffer in the interrogation room.

As for anything else, I dared not think about it.

The pretty waitress knocked at the door and came in with a spicy chicken dish and two bowls. She placed them on the table.

We kept looking silently at her

She glanced at us and then went out.

“ Girl, I missed you terribly in the last three years!”

In one sentence, he had brought back the feeling of intense longing I used to feel for him.

I smiled, but it felt fake.

“ What is it that you want to ask me?”

I breathed in deeply and said, “ Even if your marriage with Yu Yin is fake, isn’t it true that you shared the same bed with her for the last three years?”

Before I had finished my sentence, Ye Zhengchen slammed his cup down on the table, causing the hot tea to spill on his hand

“ Who told you this ? Yu Yin?” He clenched his hand in a fist and barked ut angrily, “ You even believed such absurd stuff?”

I looked at my cup, the tea in it was trembling

“Why would you prefer to believe whatever she says, but decide not to trust me?”

He sounded gloomy and upset now.

“ It’s not that I believe her and not you”, I sighed “ In this world, I don’t believe anyone…”

This the lesson he had taught me, one that I was never going to forget.

He looked out of the window, taking a moment to calm down.

“ I was only working with her. There was nothing else between us but work.”

 

I didn’t say anything. Instead, I stared at the diamond ring on my finger.

He looked down and followed my gaze to look at the ring as well

The ice blue light refracted from the diamond. I did not understand how a piece of coal could turn to something so beautiful.

Right! This was because it had gone through millions of cuts and millions of polishing.

Now it represented eternal commitment.

He took the watch from the table and put it in his pocket.

After eating a tasteless lunch, Ye Zhengchen dropped me back to my residence. He didn’t speak at all on the way. When I got of the car, I told him, “ I will go back to the south. Let me know if there is any news about Zhong Tim.”

Suddenly, he grabbed my hand. His grip was so strong that the ring cut in my finger causing me pain. I clenched my mouth

I didn’t pull out my hand but he released me. “ Don’t worry. I will find a way to get your fiancé off.”

“Thank you !”

NCND – 36

I didnt know how much time my father had, and I was not going to miss out on a chance to show him filial piety. I did not return to Japan and Brother Feng helped me in the procedures to drop out from my doctoral program. I did not ask him about Ye Zhengchen and he did not mention him, except that they were frequently in contact

Later, my father asked me to admit him in the oncology department of our hospital

This was the place where most people never came out after being admitted

For three years, I had sent many people inside who went to heaven thereafter

Fortunately, my father was still relatively healthy and was recovering well. My mother accompanied him for a walk in the park every morning

Every time I saw them, I smiled

When we are young, and we are eager in love, we expect love that is as hot as fire, consuming all your passions, a love that overpowers all rational thought. Only once you saw people die, would you actually see beyond the superficial

 

I was no longer young , no longer yearned for an all consuming, passionate love, but I never regretted my choices when I was young

 

Long after the pain had passed, I still remembered him

 

And I would, till the day I died

…… …

 

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Three years passed by.

 

I looked at my watch. It was five minutes after eight. I dressed up to get ready for work.

Yin Zhong Tian had called me yesterday, asking me to accompany him as he bought some furniture for his house.

I had told him that I was on night duty and was free during the day

Immediately he replied that he would pick me up in the morning at nine o clock

Because of his father’s contacts, he had been assigned to the municipal office right after graduation. Step by step, he had slowly but steadily risen to be the secretary of the deputy mayor.

Perhaps it was a habit that was inculcated into him because f his profession, but every time we would meet, he would arrange the details like a professional meeting. He would always respect my time and willingness

With him , everything was planned in meticulous details, including our meetings

I never had to worry about him suddenly changing the meeting, because he would always plan carefully

 

Smiling on my way down, I saw his car parked downstairs. He was sitting at the wheel concentrating on a map, perhaps selecting the most optimal route

I got into the car and he put down the map

“ What are you thinking ? You seem to be in a good mood.”

“ I was thinking that you are so good at planning everything in meticulous detail, do you already have a girlfriend living with you who will become a fiancée and then a wife?”

With a cute face, he thought about my question seriously and said, “ Apart from you, there is no one else.”

I believed him

Zhong Tian never spoke nonsense

Whatever he said was always carefully considered. He would never say something he did not mean

 

Mom and Dad were always pointing out the many advantages of Zhong Tian – he was calm, considerate, spoke well, treated people well. I agreed that he was a really good man.

 

I leaned back against the seat, waiting for him to start the car and drive to the main road.

As we passed the familiar streets, I smiled faintly, thinking about a patient who had been released from the hospital today.

When she left, her husband helped her change her clothes and then supported her as she walked back. She smiled as she waved goodbye to me

 

In the case of some people, when you waved goodbye, it meant that you would never see them again.

…… …

 

********* *********

 

As Zhong Tian had already done a preliminary survey, we quickly selected a cabinet with glass sliding doors. We still had some time left on our hands, so we went to see some curtains. There were many styles and designs – dazzling ones, Korean ones, gorgeous European designs and simple designs as well.

“ Do you like any?”, he asked me.

I looked around for a moment and pointed to one, “This green one is nice.”

“ How about this gray one?” he pointed to a design in a light gray color.

 

I looked at it and it looked quite elegant. But somehow I found my eyes straying back to the green one on the left. A picture of light green curtains of a translucent material, touching almost the ground and tied up with dark green tassels came to my mind. Whenever the door was opened, the tassels would ripple in the breeze.

It was a beautiful sight!

 

“ Bo Bing?”

“ Huh?” I came back to earth. “ Yes, it’s really nice.”

“ Then let’s take these.”

I pointed to the green curtains and asked the salesman, “ Do you have this in any other color?”

“ What colour do you want?”

“ Anything other than green…”

 

The salesman immediately showed me the design book. “ We have this pattern in purple, blue..even this pale pink is really nice.”

But the pattern in other colours looked vulgar. It didnt really appeal to me

“ Thank you!” I gave the book back to her.

“ Let’s take the gray one on the right.”

 

Before leaving, I turned around for one last look at the light green curtains. They were stunning!

 

…… …

 

After lunch, Zhong Tiam called me again

One of his friends ran a shop that sold wedding gowns and he had called Zhong Tiam saying that they had recently got a new batch of gowns.

While the date for the wedding had not yet been set as I was in no mood to wed in a hurry the shop owner still insisted we at least have a look. It was off-season now, and he promised to give us a discount.

We had to bow down to his repeated requests

 

He even joked, “ A wedding is not like anything else. Even if you dont marry Zhong Tiam, sooner or later, you will end up marrying somebody and will need to get a wedding gown.”

 

Zhong Tiam playfully punched him on the shoulder when he heard this comment

I had rarely seen him participate in jokes. I could understand that his relationship with the shop owner was very good.

 

“ This is a very popular style in Europe and US this year”, he pointed to a gown on the display window. “It would really suit you. If you don’t believe me , try it!”

Zhong tiam touched the dress and added, Yes, try it.”

 

 

…… …

 

The US and Europe have always favoured low cut styles with a long skirt. The shop assistant procured a pair of three inch high heels for me to wear. She even helped me tied up my hair, with a few strands left loose.

 

Twenty minutes later, I came out from the changing room, a smile on my face.

Zhong Tiam looked at me and looked completely taken aback.

I was embarrassed to see his hot gaze on me and quickly moved my eyes towards the window

It was a warm summer afternoon. The sun rays came through the window and hit the floor.

Outside the window, I could see the faint silhouette of a man in a dark green army uniform.

As soon as I looked at him, there was a sudden rush of emotion in my heart.

 

I blinked, trying to confirm that the face I had seen at the window really resembled the person who often haunted my dreams.

But he turned, and his back resembled that person’s back.

There was too much of a similarity. Knowing it could not be true, I still moved quickly towards the window to see him more clearly…

He had a  military bearing . He was in a dark green uniform with stars on his shoulder, indicating a high rank

Just a view of the back was enough to entice a woman

He crossed the road and got into a white, high brand name SUV

The car was standing next to a very obvious ‘No Parking’ sign. This didnt gel with military ethics

The car started but did not drive away

Time stood still for a while, everything in front of me seemed to have frozen in time.

Zhong Tiam came towards me and looked at me.

“ What is it?” he asked as he place his hand on my bare shoulder.

“ Nothing. I was just admiring the car”

Suddenly, the car shot out of parking and drove towards the main road

 

At the intersection, the light was red. The car accelerated past the intersection ignoring the red light, causing a chaos as the other cars hit their brakes

The traffic police manning the intersection was also stunned, dumbly watching the car speed away.

Just because he was military, he need not be so arrogant!

NCND – Ch 32

First part. Please dont forget to catch up on the last part of Chapter 31

 

 

Three years later

 

A burst of rhythmic music jerked Zhang Wei back to reality from his memories. He turned his attention to the people around him.

Ye Zhengchen took out his phone and looked at the call id. Then, with an expressionless face, he put the phone back in his pocket.

After a minute, the phone started ringing again. In the small space, teh volume was amplified multiple times

Zhang Wei placed his hands on his ears to cut off the din, “ I’m going to turn deaf!”

Ye Zhengchen coldly looked at him , then with his thumb, he touched the screen and picked up the phone, “ Any Problems?”

 

“It’s my Dad’s birthday tomorrow”. Yu Yin had always been like this. She would just say half. The rest was left to the other person’s understanding.

Ye Zhengchen thought for a while. “ I’m not going to be able to attend tomorrow.”

“ Gift?”

“ I know”.

He thought Yu Yin just wanted to remind him to get a gift, but she continued, “ My father said he wanted to drink 30 year old vintage whisky. Do you know where you can find one?”

“ Yes. I’ll get it tonight.”

“ Ok”

With no further wastage of words, he hung up the phone

Although he didn’t set out to deliberately eavesdrop on their conversation, in the closed space, Zheng Wei could not help overhearing the conversation.

 

“30 year old vintage of white wine for your father-in-law would be really difficult to find!” He especially empahasised the word father in law

 

Ye Zhengchen looked at him coldly. He did not speak and moved his gaze to the shadows.

 

Unable to achieve the desired effect, Zheng Wei continued to laugh and ridicule him, “When are you free? I haven’t met you wife and you in any kind of gathering for a long time and I kind of like her..”

 

A chilled look swept over him

“ If you say one more word, I will throw you out of the car.”

“ I am just curious what methods they used to get you to sign the marriage contract…”

Zheng Wei wasn’t just ridiculing him, he genuinely wanted to know this from Ye Zhengchen

 

But Ye Zhengchen did not say anything

 

Zheng Wei really wasn’t aware what the issue was. They had been friends for the last twenty years. He knew Ye Zhengchen’s character very well, he was extremely stubborn and unyielding. He would never marry a woman he did not love unless there was something seriously wrong with him.

Ye Zhengchen pressed is foot on the throttle and the car lurched forward at high speed.

 

Zheng Wei was after all the only son in his family and had not yet married. So wisely, he chose not to risk his life anymore and changed the topic.

 

“What about the fiancé of your ex-girlfriend? How do you want me to deal with him?”

 

This topic was clearly much more palatable to Ye Zhengchen. He answered immediately, “ If he actually participated in the corruption, you should give him at least six to seven years of imprisonment.”

“ Six years?” Zheng Wei was slightly taken aback,”Do you want her to beg you?”

 

Ye Zhengchen pursed his mouth and answered, “ Of course, how can once be enough..?”

 

********* *********

 

At eight o clock in the evening, Ye Zhengchen carried two bottles of whiskey to his residence. He had just returned home, and had not found the time to look for a new accommodation. So he temporarily stayed in the apartment his father had bought for him while he was abroad.

At the time that the apartment had been purchased, this building had been one of the few high rises around. Now, it was drowned in a sea of similar tall buildings.

 

As he pushed the door open and switched on the light, he placed the bottles on the corner table and hung his coat from the hook.

 

The apartment had three bedrooms and was decorated in an old fashioned manner. It looked a bit stern, but ye Zhengchen’s room was always clean. It was a habit he could not change.

At the window, he stood for some time to observe the brightly lit panoramic view.

Perhaps it was because he had stayed abroad for too long that now he felt that the city he had grown up in now looked strange and unfamiliar. He missed the ancient idiosyncrasies of the old buildings and the large tracts of greenery.

Many sweet memories were buried under the dust

He suddenly recalled that low rise apartment in Osaka, the many sincere friends, the romantic cherry tree outside the building..

In full bloom, the petals floated onto the balcony they shared..

That year, that day, the peach blossoms had been swaying wildly in the stormy winds as two people indulged in their briefest, but most gorgeous love.

 

In the last three years, he had looked forward to the day he would regain his freedom. That day, he would grab her hand mercilessly, embrace her ruthlessly and tell her how much he wanted her, how much he missed her.

But time and tide waited for none..

Even if he could still hold her hand, take her in his arms and even take her to bed, the sentence, “ I miss you” has long become completely meaningless to her.

 

 

…… …

 

The doorbell rang. Ye Zhengchen was pulled out of his reverie. He drew the curtains over the window, extinguishing the view of the twinkling lights

The door opened. Yu Yin, looking resplendent in a purple gown walked up to him

“Little Wu only got two bottles”, he solemnly told her. She kept standing at the door, showing no signs of picking up the bottles and leaving

She smiled, “Great!”

Ye Zhengchen didn’t bother telling her how difficult it was to get the bottles. “ You’re welcome”

“Where did you go last night?” Yu Yin asked.

“ The hotel”, he answered shortly

“ And drank with your friends?”

“ And slept with a woman”

A deathly silence fell in the corridor.

Then suddenly she laughed.”Don’t lie just to provoke me”

“ I dont need to provoke you. I’m not lying”

 

“ And who was the woman?” she gave a forced smile.” Bo Bing?”

“ Yes”, he didnt bother denying it

 

For Ye Zhengchen, fabricating lies was a waste of mental energy. To try and design every detail, then make it sound logical, ensure there were no contradictions in the story and make the appropriate expressions was just too much of hard work.

In this life, he had only found it worthwhile to lie for one woman. And that woman was Bo Bing

 

Unfortunately, she only hated him for all his lies. She never realised that the man who carefully builds a lie is the man who cared for her and feared her.

 

Yu Ying’s breathing was a bit strained, but her voice was still calm.

“ I heard that the secretary of the deputy mayor in Nanzhou was arrested for corruption. If I remember correctly, he is her fiancée, isn’t he?”

Ye Zhengchen undid the buttons on his cuff and folded is sleeves without bothering to answer her.

Yu Yin persevered, “ Dont you think you are being too mean?”

He looked and up and smiled at her.

“ You see through everything. Aren’t you tired of tryin to analyse every single detail in my life?”

 

******* *******

Tired. She was tired

 

 

Twenty-four, twenty-three, twenty-two …

As the elevator display counted down the floors, Yu Yin’s body and spirit also seemed to be sinking down

Tiredly, she leaned against the elevator wall.

The man she loved was Ye Zhengchen – a man who would never submit.

She made all the efforts, exhausted her whole being and even spent three years with him, day and night, but was unable to change his minf

Sometimes she really doubted he was human!

 

The elevator doors swished open and Yu Yin stepped into the dark night.

Whenever she thought of giving up on this man, a particular scene flashed in her mind

 

It was a morning after the rains. In that solemn moment, in the golden light, a person wearing white gloves raised the red flag fluttering in the wind.

The first ray of sunshine pierced through the clouds and fell on him. His handsome silhouette showcased all the qualities of fortitude, responsibility, perseverance, courage, confidence, discipline, pride and loyalty..

 

Before this, her impression of Ye Zhengchen had always been that of a typical rick kid.

But after that day, she realised that she had never understood Ye Zhengchen at all..

He was a man who would not people see his real persona

Without knowing it, she was entranced by this man, her heart has been completely captured by him…

 

miumiu : So a little glimpse of Yu Yin’s state f mind. Dont worry, this is not a time jump. We will go back to the events that happened three years back. And yes! YZ is actually married to YY..or so it seems

 

 

NCND – Ch 31

First part of chapter 31. The angst continues. BB can no longer ignore YZ, but will they be able to return to how it was before? I still owe Lolee and Pink for their reviews but I am going to try and do those chapters over the weekend.

Gong Xi Fa Cai in advance for those of you who are celebrating..

Chapter 31: The lies we tell

I gritted my teeth till it hurt. In my heart, I cried out, I cannot! He has a fiancée. He has a fiancée.

But instead I said,” What did you think I was doing? I am just going to get you some soup.”

I felt like slapping myself. This wasn’t good. No medicine could save me from myself.

“ I want to eat pork ribs and melon soup. Put more ribs”, he called out in a clear voice.

“Got it.”

Ugh! I must have owed him in my previous birth.

…… …

It was summer, and the day was exceptionally hot. I rode my bike to the supermarket. Sweating like a pig, I bought a pile of ribs, beef and a variety of fruits and vegetables. Then I went home to cook

The pot slowly simmered while I stared at the rising heat and the soup bubbling in the pot.

I didn’t know if what I was doing was right.

I didn’t know what Yu Yin really was in the eyes of Ye Zhengchen.

I was a mere human, not god. When I saw a man I loved torturing himself to unconsciousness, when I saw him wake up and make a confession, how could I not be touched? How could I still emotionlessly tell him, I do not want to be with you ?

But just because I couldn’t bury my feelings for him did not give me a reason to accept this relationship. After all, there was a bonafide fiancée between us.

In the past, I was unaware of the truth

Now the facts had been laid plainly in front of me. How would I face Yu Yin, Ye Zhengchen’s real fiancé?

The more you were afraid of something, the more likely that you would face it.

At noon, when I walked into the ward with the soup, I saw Yu Yin in the ward.

I had never encountered such a depressing scene

Three people were in the same room, of which one pair were genuinely engaged to each other and had known each other for decades.

I didn’t know where to hide.

Seeing me at the door, Yu Yin turned slightly. She was sitting in the bedside chair, elegantly dressed as usual. Her slight smile didnt have even a hint of irony.

It was too late to hide. Bracing myself, I walked to the table and put the container on the table.

“ Brother, the soup is hot. Eat it before it gets cold… uh… I’ll come back later.” I dared not dally any longer and rushed to the door.

“Girl”, Ye Zhengchen called out to me.

I turned back and smiled at him and Yu Yin. My smile was stiff and unnatural.

“ You guys continue talking, I won’t bother you.”

Once I was outside, I closed the door very politely.

Was this the feeling that a third person in a relationship had? I really felt cheap.

Feeling extremely nauseous, I kicked the wall in anger. A spasm of intense pain travelled right upto my central nervous system as soon as my foot touched the wall. I held my ankle while hopping on one leg, tears flowing unrestrained down my cheeks.

Fortunately, no one else saw me or I would be terribly embarrassed.

I limped back to my apartment. The fragrance of ribs melon soup was still hanging in the air.

I realised that I had missed my lunch. I opened the lid of the pot and poured out the remaining soup in a bowl. Then I drank the soup and chewed the bones in an effort to get some calcium in my body

After having my lunch, I dug out the first aid box my father had prepared for me. I found some safflower oil and massaged it into my own ankle.

While massaging, I cursed in my heart, Ye Zhengchen, you have the heart of a cunning wolf, how could you die!

As I cursed him, the phone started to ring. I jumped up to see who it was . I looked at the caller id. Who else could it be but the man with the heart of a wolf.

I was tired , so sitting down on the chair, I received the call.

“ Hello”.

“ That soup was delicious”, he said, “ what’s for dinner?”

“ Soup made from the fickle heart of a cruel and unscrupulous beast”

He laughed at that. His clear and bright laughter made my heart miss a beat

“ Should I get the ingredients?”

“ What happened to your pretty, elegant and lovely fiancé?”

“ She’s gone. And she won’t come back again.”

“ …”

I was speechless. I continued slowly rubbing the safflower oil on my ankle.

Seeing that I wasn’t going to comment, he solemnly apologised, “ Girl, I’m sorry. I promise that this situation will never be repeated”

“Ok”, I took a deep breath.

Even if he had the ability to send Yu Yin away, even if that meant that the odd situation I was in today would not repeat, it did not mean that Yu Yin would cease to exist.

She would always be a thorn in my relationship with Ye Zhengchen

“ You don’t believe me?”

I shook my head silently. “ I’ll get dinner for you tonight”

I hung up the phone and absentmindedly continued to rub my ankle.

…… …

At night, I made beef soup and carried two bowls to the hospital.

I peeked inside from the door before I went in the ward. Ye Zhengchen was propped up in the bed reading a book. From time to time, he looked at his watch impatiently. He looked better than in the morning, maybe the melon soup contributed in uplifting his mood.

I took a closer look to determine that Yu Yin wasn’t in any corner of the room.

Then I pushed the door open and endured the pain in my ankle to walk in smoothly. The minute Ye Zhengchen saw me, his face lit up.

As soon as I sat down, Ye Zhengchen looked surprised and started sniffing the air. Then he looked at me from top to bottom. His eyes finally paused ay my ankle. “ Did you hurt your foot?”

I was a fool. How did I forget that he was a doctor? I should not have used safflower oil, and I should not have worn a skirt.

He lifted the quilt and patted the place next to him, “ Sit here and let me see”.

He was in the hospital robes, but his posture was like that of an attending physician.Obediently, I sat on his bed, took off my shoes and placed the injured ankle on the bed.

He gently examined the swollen ankle. I couldn’t help reacting when his fingers touched my ankle.

He raised his eyebrows and looked at me , “ How did you hurt yourself/”

I didn’t want to tell him that I had kicked the wall.

He gently wrapped my ankle in his warm palms. I felt an electric current pass through me accompanied with spasms of pain.

I could see is face was pale and that he was blaming himself. That made me realise how much he truly cared about me.

I believed that his feelings for me were genuine

Even if the trust between us was like walls on a beach that would collapse when the storms came in, I would continue reinforcing those walls over and over again

“ Don’t come tomorrow. Just rest in your apartment. For the next three days, don’t walk. And don’t ride your bike for the next one month.”

He instructed me carefully as he gently massaged my ankle.

“Then who will get you food?”

He patted my head and said softly, “ Silly girl!”

I would rather be a silly girl, guarding my happiness in all innocence and remain ignorant for the rest of my life.

He took out my seagull watch from under his pillow and fastened it on my wrist again.

I looked at the minute hand. I wasn’t quite sure what I was feeling, but there was a vacuum in my chest, as if nothing could fill it up

His hand moved slowly from my hand to my face. Then he lifted my face as his lips moved closer to mine..

Just as his lips were approaching mine, the image of Yu Yin suddenly flashed in my mind. A piercing pain shot through my heart and I immediately shifted my face to avoid his kiss

“Are you still angry with me?” , he asked.

I shook my head. Quietly, I moved away from his bed and handed him the bowl of soup.

My innate disposition prevented me from being a third person in a relationship

I could not steal another person’s happiness, nor could I deceive myself. I could not forget that there was another innocent woman who was being affected by all of this for no fault of hers…

So I could only torture myself and him…

************* *************

Two days later, Ye Zhengchen was discharged from the hospital. I cleaned up the apartment, binned the beer cans and cleaned the floor. I washed the sheets and his clothes till they smelled fresh. When he came in, I was standing on a chair to hang the freshly washed curtains. He picked me up from the chair and threw me on the bed.

“ Didn’t I tell you to rest at home? Why would you climb so high?”

“ Yes, doctor”

I pushed him away, “ Go have a bath and change your clothes”

As soon as he heard the word ‘bath’, his eyes gleamed and he immediately walked to the bathroom

A few minutes later, he came out. Silently, he looked at the closed curtains, then hugged me from behind and pressed me against the wall

His strength was amazing!

How did he recover so well ?

If I wasn’t myself a doctor and I hadn’t seen his pale face, I would think that he had lied to me about his recent illness.

“ Girl..”, his lips were close to my ear as he continued in his rich, magnetic voice, “ do you like me?”

I pushed him away coldly and lowered my face, “ Please stop it”.

Stunned, he took a closer look at my face. There were no signs of jest or desire in my eyes. Reluctantly, he let go of my waist.

…… …

Some people suddenly appear in your life just at the moment that you were about to forget them.

 

One boring afternoon, just as I got out of class, Yu Yin called me. Very sincerely, she said she wanted to talk to me. We decided to meet at the Starbucks outlet near my school. She said, “Dont tell him , he won’t allow me to meet you.”

“ I know”

Compared to the outlets in the commercial district, the Starbucks in the campus was really quiet. There weren’t too many customers, and the few who were there were quietly doing their own thing.

 

We ordered two cups of coffee and sat down near the window.

He face still had a shallow smile. There was no hint of anger or worries

I have often read of scenes where the fiancée and the lover meet in romance novels. I felt a bit strange and flustered.

 

I bent my head to drink the coffee , avoiding looking into her eyes.

“ Sometimes, I really admire him..”, Yu Yin started, “ he can control any kind of woman in the palm of his hand.”

If this sentence had not been directed to me, I would have applauded heartily.

The sentence had just the right mix of ruthlessness and poison to pierce a person’s heart.

 

I wanted to retort, “ I don’t know how many women Ye Zhengchen can control because when he was with me , he did not pay attention to any other woman”

 

 

 

But in view of my current status as a third party, I decided to be low key and said, “ I’m sorry. I must be the world’s stupidest woman. I didn’t even know he had a fiancé”

 

“Fiance?”, Yu Yin suddenly laughed, “ his fiancé? Is that what he told you?”

I looked up in surprise,” Isn’t that true?”

She didn’t answer but only gave me a sarcastic smile which meant, “ Of course not!”

 

I was confused. Did Ye lie to me ? No, he would not. This time, what he said was true.

 

Yu Yin said, “ Did he tell you that he never loved me, that our marriage was forced by our parents, and that he had no choice but to accept? Did he tell you that I like him and that is why I am stalking him?”

I nodded. Wasn’t that true?

“ Do you believe him?”, she looked at me in amazement, as if I was an idiot.

“ Do you really believe that he would get engaged to me even if he did not love me? You really believe that even though I was aware that he did not love me, that he, infact loved you, I would still shamelessly pursue him? Don’t you think thats a bit ridiculous?”

 

“ I believe him. He will not lie to me.”

Yu Yin smiled, her smile more joyous as my heart became more confused.

 

“ You know, apart from majoring in clinical practice, he also studied psychology. He can understand the inner workings of human minds, and he uses that to control other people’s behaviour. A normal person can never read him or understand his moods. He can even fool a polygraph.”

 

Was I that stupid? Was she talking about a normal human being or god?

NCND – 26.2

Thank you to bookworm11 and Ranie for the reviews on NU. I will release 4 consecutive chapters as promised by next week.

Bo Bing starts supsecting something is not quite right…

I had just taken two sips of the milk when Yu Yin came in. She saw Ye Zhengchen, called out a hello and put down a basket of fruits on the table.

She took two fresh peaches from the basket, “ I will go wash the peaches.”

The fruits were tempting, and I couldn’t help look at two she picked up. It was just then that I noticed that Yu Yin used only one hand to pick up both the peaches. Her other hand was empty. I wondered why she wasn’t using both her hands when I saw her deliberately tap Ye Zhengchen’s shoulder twice with the index and middle finger of the other hand.

 

This was similar to what I had seen Ye Zhengchen do several times. For some reason, this little action left a profound impression on me

Ye Zhengchen showed no outward response. He took a paper towel to wipe my face. I didn’t say anything. I continued to sip the milk.

A few minutes later, his phone rang. In Japan, one is not allowed to answer phones in the hospital ward. Ye Zhengchen quickly got up.

“ I’ll take this call.”

When he went out , I felt a moment of unease.

I am not a person given to fancies, but my woman’s intuition told me something was not quite what it seemed..

I got out of the bed, put on my shoes and limped to the door.

 

I didn’t know whether I had expected this, but I could see Ye Zhengchen and Yu Yin talking.

Yu Yin’s back was towards me. I couldn’t see her face. I could see Ye Zhengchen’s face but there was no expression on it.

 

I tried to get a bit closer and listen to what they were saying, but this caught the eye of Ye Zhengchen.

He didn’t show any panicked reaction when he saw me. Instead, he calmly took out his wallet from his pocket, extracted a bank card, and handed it to Yu Yin. He said something to her.

 

I hesitated and walked slowly towards them. “ What are you guys talking about ?”

As soon as she heard my voice, Yu Yin immediately turned.

Her face was red and there were clear tear tracks down her cheeks.

“Nothing, I just gave her back the money for the hospitalization”, Ye Zhengchen said.

Yu Yin took the bank card from his hand, then turned around and smiled at me. Her eyes were red and swollen.

“ I am sorry. I need to go now.”

She almost ran into the elevator.

“Why was she crying?”

As I asked him , I promised to myself that I would believe whatever he told me. I did not want any misunderstandings between the two of us.

But as it turned out , sometimes asking a man to clear a misunderstanding would only force him to lie and lie again.

He frowned and seemed reluctant to answer my question

“ Fine. Don’t tell me “, I turned away coldly.

With every step I took away from him, my heart sank bit my bit into a deep, dark abyss..

“ She wants me to forgive her”, he rushed towards me and blocked my way.

“ She said it was too dark, your bike did not have any lights , so she wasn’t able to see you..”

I clearly remembered that the lights on my bike were on

On a dark night, not having the bike lights on was illegal. I had once been caught by a policeman who had lectured me for ten minutes. After that, I never forgot to turn them on.

I didn’t know why Yu Yin had not seen me , or why she wanted to find an excuse. That was not important, What was important was what was happening between her and Ye Zhengchen

 

I turned back and asked him, “ What did you say?”

“ I told her to get lost.”

I was silent for a long time.

“ How can you curse like that? Aren’t you a gentleman?”

“ She almost killed you !”, his voice rose by an octave. Angrily he said, “ You ask me to smile and talk to her ? Doesnt it matter that she almost killed you?“

I was confused by his reaction. Finally I smiled. ‘ There are so many women out there. Even if I were killed, you would soon find another one.”

He took my hand. The black band of his watch shone under the white lights of the hospital. On the band, a clear word was engraved: ‘Girl.”

Later, he asked me seriously, “ Girl, did you really forget to switch on the bike lights?”

“Yes, I forgot”, I said, “Brother, you were a little rude. You should apologise”

“Ok”

 

…… …

 

The next day, when Yu Yin visited, Ye Zhengchen took the initiative to draw a chair for her. Yu Yin was surprised for a bit, then she quickly said, “ Thank you!”

 

I winked at him. He nodded helplessly, then facing Yu Yin, he smiled reluctantly. “ I am sorry, I should not have blamed you.. . I should not have spoken so rudely to you yesterday”

“Does’nt matter”, Yu Yin said and looked at me, “ I understand that she is too important to you.”

As she said that, I thought she looked so beautiful.

In a beautiful light gray dress, with shining hair, an elegant and refined temperament, when she smiled she looked like an angel from the stars.

 

 

********** **********

 

After this, Ye Zhengchen and Yu Yin’s relationship improved a lot. They would occasionally chat with each other or simply say hello.

 

After I was discharged from the hospital< I invited Yu Yin for a dinner. She looked closely at my home. I had, of course forgotten to stack the quilts we had used in the morning or to wipe off the tally marks on the wall

“ This is the number of times my boyfriend tutored me”, I said, as I folded the quilts.

“ You must have an excellent relationship”

 

“It’s ok”, I shrugged, “ I think it’s still too early to tell. We have been together less than three months”

“ Three months . This is the period of passionate love.”

“ Yes. It’s still too early. Once time goes by, we will know for sure.”

 

Yu Yin did not reply. She kept staring at the tally marks on the wall

A few days later, she invited me to come to her home

I readily agreed.

She drove me to her home. On the way there were a lot of convenience stores, many of them closer to her than the one where I worked.

 

Yu Yin’s home was similar to the home that I dreamed of. White picket fences enclosed a house with a small garden. Yellow tulips bloomed in the garden

A long brick path down the garden led to white wooden door. A wind chime was hanging on the door.

As she opened the door, a lovely aroma from inside the house greeted us.

 

Just opposite the door , there were French windows. Light green curtains were drawn over the windows.

The wind blew in and rustled the curtains, creating a green shadow on the floor..

Yu Yin said, “I’m sorry but he always wants the curtains to be drawn over the windows.”

 

Author’s note: Do you think the girl is silly? She isn’t. Infact her observation powers are too sharp…