Ch 38- The Kiss

Zhong Yuan stood under the orange street lights and looked at me with a slight smile. His smile was like the sunshine in winter, warm and comforting but equally unreachable.

“ Do you want to practice first?” he asked

His voice was as clear as spring water, but my back stiffened at the question. Practice?

Zhong Yuan placed the bicycle aside so it was leaning against the side of the road. He stared at my eyes and asked, “ You don’t want to?”

His eyes looked beautiful. His black pupils reflected the orange light of the street lamps. This kind of gaze was hard for any girl to resist me, leave alone me who had been thinking about him for a very long time…

There were very few people on the streets at this point of time and my courage grew. I clenched my fists and nodded slightly. Okay, let me admit this, I was actually very interested in this proposal.

With a chuckle, Zhong Yuan lowered his head towards me. I was feeling a bit nervous. I dared not move or close my eyes.

The soft, warm lips touched my lips with no forewarning. Though I was expecting it, I was still caught off guard. My body stiffened, and my eyes widened. I was looking into Zhong Yuan’s eyes in close proximity. But he was looking into my eyes as well and the unexpectedly soft emotions in those eyes made me forget the touch on my lips. Was this an illusion? Why did I feel like there was a something like caring in his eyes?

Suddenly, Zhong Yuan let go of me. He licked his own lips and said, “ Why are your lips so cold? Are you feeling cold?”

I watched his tongue flicker as it licked his full and plump lips. Suddenly, I had an urge to rush and bite his lips. Oops! My thoughts were becoming more and more evil…

I blushed furiously at such a perverted thought.

Zhong Yuan raised one hand and gently patted my face. He was smiling as he asked me, “ Are you feeling shy?”

His fingers were like oil to fire. Wherever they touched my face, that part started burning even more furiously. I lowered my head as I lost the courage to look at him. But as soon as I lowered my head, he lifted my chin with his fingers, and to my surprise, started kissing me again!


His lips were still soft and warm. They lightly brushed against my lips and I could feel my lips warming from his touch. Then he opened his mouth, and started sucking my lips gently, then with increasing force. I could feel my lips numbing. Unsatisfied, he then used his tongue to lick my lips, slowly. I could feel the blood from my whole body rushing to my lips. Everything receded into the background, and all my consciousness was centred around the burning sensation on my lips

Zhong Yuan moved his head from side to side. Hi eyes were closed. His eyelashes trembled slightly like fine and delicate feathers fluttering in the wind.

The sensation on my lips suddenly disappeared and I froze slightly. Zhong Yuan let go of my face, but his body was still close to mine. His lips brushed over my cheeks, then moved to the corners of my face till they finally reached my ears. Slightly upset, he whispered in my ears, ‘Mu er, please close your eyes and give me some reaction.”As the words penetrated the fog in my brain, I could feel my heart thumping in my chest.

I froze and suddenly I felt very useless. But I was so overwhelmed! How do I react ?

He took hold of my arms and placed then around his neck, “Hug me”, he instructed. I was feeling really embarrassed by now but I still complied. I wrapped my arms around his neck. Zhong Yuan let go of my shoulder. Instead, he circled my waist with his arms and pulled me closer to him. Then he said, “ Close your eyes.”

I closed my eyes and the absence of vision heightened the other senses, Zhong Yuan’s body was now tightly attached to mine and I could feel his chest heaving. I could even hear his uneven breathing. This time, he covered my lips with his and nipped gently. I felt a slight pain and involuntarily pulled back, but he quickly moved his hands up my back and pulled me forward to meet his lips

Our breathing was more and more erratic and I felt like I was melting as the heat crept up my body. Zhong Yuan used his tongue to swirl against my teeth and I opened my mouth in response. His tongue slipped into my mouth and then swept across my mouth. He used his tongue playfully as he continued to suck my lips. I felt as if he was sucking all my strength and my legs buckled. I leant closer to Zhong Yuan for support. He held me tighter and almost lifted me off the ground.

Slowly, the initial discomfort was replaced by a fiery yet sweet sensation. My heart was completely overwhelmed and I felt that even my bones were becoming liquid. Who knew that kissing someone could cause so many strange sensations – like pink waves in a deep sea where people could not help but want to sink into the sweet sensations. The kiss seemed to last for a century until I felt light headed due to the lack of oxygen. It was then that Zhong Yuan finally let go of me. We were both breathing heavily, our breaths intertwining with each other. Zhong Yuan stared at me with a proud smile on his face and said, “ Mu er, admit it, you are in love with me.”

I stared at him in disbelief. How did he know? What should I do now?

He kissed my forehead lightly and smiled, “ Don’t look so surprised! Of course, I can feel it.”


Suddenly I was lost. I could feel the blood rush to my head as I broke away from his embrace and started to run away. Even I wasn’t sure why I was running away, but I was extremely confused. I didn’t know how to face him, face this man who was even more cunning than a fox.

But Zhong Yuan soon caught up to me in the bicycle and a familiar voice sounded right beside me.

“ Mu er, do you really think you can out run a bicycle?’

I looked at him by my side and he smiled calmly at this moment. A jolt of anger rushed through me like a strike of lightning. Even before I had consciously thought of it, my body was already reacting. I lifted my leg to kick away the bike. Zhong Yuan was too close to me to avoid the kick and the bike fell to the side with him on it. Unfortunately, he had really long legs and he was able to balance himself before he fell over.

I had almost reached the dormitory by now. I ran into the building with the fastest speed I had ever achieved in my life. I could hear someone calling my name behind me, but my mind was in too much of a mess for any coherent thought at this time.

I slipped into the dormitory like thief evading capture. Then I sat down on the chair and panted. When I looked up finally, I caught Boss and Li’l Second looking at me strangely. I waved at them to indicate everything was fine. Then I lay down on the table and replayed the scene in my mind.

There was another long kiss in my head, sweet and suffocating. But we were just rehearsing for the movie!

As I remembered this, my heart gradually cooled down and my brain resumed functioning. Zhong Yuan had found out. He knew…

Suddenly I felt that I had been grievously wronged. I had tried to keep my feelings a secret. But this guy Zhong Yuan was o horrid, did he have to expose me ? Why could he not pretend that he didn’t know anything ? The more I mulled on it, the more uncomfortable I felt. The expression on his face when he spoke to me made it obvious that this was all a big joke to me! The beast!

What was he going to do next? Would he act all condescending and tell me that he was really sorry but he didn’t really like me? And then follow that comment with his usual calm smile? Or would he guffaw ridiculously, look at me and say, “How is it even possible for me to like you?”

Or, would he smile proudly and say, “ I have always known I am so charming that even Mu er likes me…”

I pulled at my hair and could not bear to think about it anymore. The human power of imagination was so scary…

At that moment, my cell phone vibrated. I looked at the display and froze. Zhong Yuan was trying to call me. I stared at the screen for a long time without answering. I didn’t dare answer. I did know how I would face him the next time we met.

The phone vibrated over and over again, as if the person on the other end knew that I was holding the phone. I finally rejected the call and turned off my cell phone.

I did not sleep well that night. The next day was Saturday. Zhong Yuan and I were supposed to film the kissing scene. But after what happened yesterday, I no longer wanted or knew how to face him. So I begged Xiaojie to film someone else’s scenes. I was too scared to even walk out of the dormitory.

Around noon. Li’l Second came up to me and said, “ Zhong Yuan is waiting for you downstairs. He said he is starving!”


14 thoughts on “If you dont go to hell, who will – ch 38

  1. even though Mu er is always easygoing but I relate with the fact that deep inside, she’s someone who is very insecure and gets hurt a lot. I know zhong yuan is a hearthrob but i wish he understands her feelings and doesnt tease her that much. But then again i love their cute interactions anyway:) Thanks for the update!

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  2. Hehehehheheheheh FINALLY A KISS ahahahahhahahahashha 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

    Thanks miumiu😘

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